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能说当遇到阻碍时自己仍旧下手去做

    就要为此事做全盘、完整的全权负责

    後果不带有负面指称也应自己承担

    流行事物

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    当一件事或一种行为变成流行、蔚为风cHa0时

    就会形式化的将此项C作幻化成社会集TX的现象

    全然无价值可言

    也许该行为是还有那麽一点点价值、还是有人真正知道他存在、被C作的意义与用处的

    但大众争相广泛的接触抢掠的原因

    大部分已经不是由於评估後对自身有意义、观照内心自己想要做的了

    而是无意识、没有想清楚、探究自我方向的投入跟风

    因为大家都这麽做，所以我「应当」也要跟着做，即使我不知道做这要g嘛？可以g嘛？因为如果我没这麽做，我可能会被异样看待甚至排挤冷落、被视为稀罕人物，而「罕见」时常在社会共同概念中是负面的词，又因为我可能会被异样看待，所以我良心不安，因为我良心不安，所以我「只好」跟着做，因为大家都这样做

    甚至

    被牵拖拉拽进去的人到最後会自认为真的对自己有帮助、有意义

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    形成假X喜欢、假X「想要」

    而自以为不是受人影响

    颠簸晃摇，原来都是自找？

    Maymyturbulenttimespasssooner

    Andallthevotilescheduleofmytimesspendingondealingwithmyayaboutbeingafraidoflosingsomething

    EventhoughI''''mnotassertiveaboutwhatisthe''''something''''

    EventhoughIdon''''tknow,I''''mntoknoouldpossiblyhappen,whatIwouldfeel,whatIshouldfeelinthenearfutureifIreallylose''''something''''

    Ijustwanttocatethingwhosemeaningorworthofhavingitisobscureandvagueforme

    Idon''''tknowtheultimate''''why''''Ihavetoreachthese

    ButIjustsomehowpossesstheextremelystrongeageranddesiretogetwhateverI,atthemoment,wahoughitisjustsometinylittletrifles

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    ReallywhenItrulygetthat,orclimbtothestatethatI''''want''''

    Idon''''tfeenythingexpectforthemomentaryhappinessoffinallygetit

    Idon''''tknowwhatthegoalis,orwhatIamgoingtodo

    PerhapsIdidn''''tevenhaveagoalinmindstartingthisgame,the''''dream''''chasinggame

    Theultimatewanting?

    StillIoresistonchasingsomethingthatIdon''''twant,thatIthinkitasmydream

    Whyfrontihorfagmystateofmind,whatIreallywantandwhatI''''mdhtnowarefilledwithdifficulty?

    IassumeIjustdon''''tdaretothink,totrulyleanihefieldwheremymentality,myinnate,inwarddesirelies

    "WhydoIwanttoachievethis?

    Whatistheimaginativeultimate,endingsarioorstatethatIpredicttohappenorwant?

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    OrhaveIevenimagihese?DoIhavegoals?

    ThenwhyamIdoingthesewithastrongwillnessandeagerness?

    Ireallydon''''tgetmymind

    OrmaybeI,deeplyinsideofmyheart,don''''twanttouanditatall

    realisticporization

    We,inthisrealisticworld,tiruggletofindhappinessinnatelyinourhearts

    Andkeepfailingchasingdreamsofwhatweactually,frankly,truthfullywa''''like''''or''''love''''

    Butpickourselvesuponceagainand,withambitionandfaith,reachtotheclimax

    Thenwhatwillhappe?

    Godonlyknows,butwehavetoknowthatwedon''''tknow

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    Don''''tevercrossthebordertooverthink,self-createtheseorevethefuturethings

    Somethingwillhappenwithnodoubt,anyway

    Whetheritwouldbeominous,hopeful,vibrant,desding

    Whetherthefuturewouldbeacamity,awondernd,aparadise,orapurgatory

    Weot,inadvahinktoomuchordotoomuordertomaximizeorminimizetheprosperityoradversity